Have I Found You, Flightless Bird? (I Am Unconditionally, Irrevocably In Love With Him)

"f you don’t know what’s going on, why not pretend? If you haven’t a clue what to do, why not bluff? That’s what politicians usually do. Get someone else who is stumbling in the dark and invite them to show the way. Then if it works they can claim the credit – and if it fails they have a scapegoat. There is, though, an alternative. You can be honest, humble and open-minded. You can ask for advice. You can try your best without being dogmatic. This week’s mystery deserves real detective work."

Rain Falls Hard
Skinny White Chick
Tangles (2005)

So, love’s got you wandering in a January haze
With no tornado warning to help classify these mixed-up days?
Someone’s got you thinking that you’ll maybe be okay?
Hold onto that every time you gotta watch your baby walk away.

Oh, the rain falls hard when he’s gone.
(the) Radio is blasting, can you find the strength to sing along?
Rain’s got a gloomy beauty,
but all these goodbyes make the sunlight look wrong.
I’m left holding on.

Oh, gather, brave young lovers; let me sympathize with you.
Comes the night, I’ll be feeling ghostly arms around me, too.
Is this not the life we choose?
To be in so deep, so torn asunder, and so bravely sing these blues?

But the rain falls hard when he’s gone!
The radio is blasting, can you help me sing along?
Rain’s got this gloomy beauty, but these goodbyes make the sunshine seem wrong.
I’m left holding on.
The sky falls black when he’s here.
The rain pours down beautiful, cleans out all the poison and the fear
All Five Horizons are sunsetted clear
The rain falls like a lover when he’s gone.
And I’m left dreaming on.
I’m left holding on.

***

I Hate This Part
The Pussycat Dolls
Doll Domination

We’re driving slow through the snow on 5th avenue
And right now radio’s all that we can hear
Now we ain’t talked since we left- It’s so overdue
It’s cold outside, but between us its worse in here
he world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer, thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger, slipping through my fingers
I don’t want to try now
All that’s left’s goodbye to find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here. I hate this part right here.
I just can’t take your tears. I hate this part right here.

Everyday 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we’re bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what’s hurting me
The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know (i know) this is (this is) the part where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer, thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger, slipping through my fingers
I don’t want to try now
All that’s lefts goodbye to find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here. I hate this part right here.
I just can’t take your tears. I hate this part right here.

I know you’ll ask me to hold on and carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies, ’cause I see sunset in your eyes
I can’t take it any longer, thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger, slipping through our fingers
I don’t want to try now
All that’s lefts goodbye to find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it. I gotta do it, I gotta do it. I hate this part.
I gotta do it. I gotta do it, I gotta do it.
I hate this part right here. I hate this part right here.
I just can’t take these tears. I hate this part right here.
***

 
"But most significant in this tidal wave of happiness was the surest fact of all: I was with him. Forever."
"Now you know. No one’s ever loved anyone as much as I love you."

Sunday evenings and Monday mornings. *sigh* How I have come to dread them. I just keep trying to beat it into my brain: Only 4 more days. It feels like he’s gone before he’s really even here. I try my best to forget that he’s leaving when he’s here, but I miss him before he’s even gone. I usually watch him from the living room window as the lights of his bike disappear down the highway. The house is so quiet without him. He woke me up this morning by showering my neck and face with his warm kisses. And then he was gone… ("Layin’ here in your arms and you hold me tight, trying not to watch the clock, tick-tickin’ as the time goes by. And I know that you’d best be on your way, but I’m wishing I could make you stay, stay with me forever. Though you’re near, still I wanna make it clear, love I will always be around. You’re leaving, I’m waiting, forgive me. I’m always missing you before the goodbye. I feel it already, forgive me. I’m always missing you before the goodbye.")

I’m going down to the sea wall tonight after work to take pictures of where John proposed, to put up on our wedding blog…

Finally got my hands on a peg-legged copy of Twilight. I seriously cannot wait until Breaking Dawn hits theatres. Damn you, recession. I like special features.

♥Kдśśị
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~ by Kд§$ị (ИovΔ) on 03/23/2009.

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