Happy Diwali (Deepavali)!!
Today is the much-celebrated festival of lights… Namaste and Om Shanti to all. This is the first time in 5 years that I have not been in Vancouver for Diwali. It makes me a little sad. Halloween is in three days. I can’t believe that in three days it will have been a year since that fateful day.
The closer I get to the anniversary of my hospitalization, the more I get nervous. It’s like a dark day for me, that I’m determined to paint with something good. I don’t want November 6th to be broken-hearted for me forever. That falls on a Thursday, by the way, so any words of encouragement would be truly appreciated. Somehow I feel concerned that I will feel like crap that day. I don’t want to, and it certainly isn’t something I’m planning for, it’s just that I can feel a soreness in my heart and in my spirit already, bracing for that day.
Not sure if Maggie’s wedding is actually happening, now. Her brother died of a heart-attack very recently, and she’s been suffering from some depression, and having some serious trouble coping. The wedding is in three days, and from what I’ve heard, she’s failed to get back to the caterer, so there is no food, she hasn’t paid for the venue, so there’s no place to hold it. I’m not sure I want to go now, anyway, because my Mom is so miserable, and she would have been my escort to the bloody thing. I’m not sure if she’s even going, since Kenn is supposed to be such a big part of the plans. Mom was supposed to help him cook the food, but since that situation is so over…
Why is it that when my life is going so well, it seems everyone else is so unhappy? This trend is upsetting to me… I wish I was spending halloween with Lauren again this year. Last year she was Marilyn Monroe and I was a gothic Dorothy from the Wizard Of Oz… Miss you Laure.