Look And You’ll Find It…
“Then said Almitra, Speak to us of Love.
And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice, he said:
When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
The Almitra spoke again and said, And what of Marriage, master?
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not into each other’s shadow.”
-From ‘The Prophet’ by Kahlil Gibran.This is my Mom’s favorite quote about love. It’s quite moving.I had another great day. They just seem to keep coming, and I spend all of my time, almost mid-euphoria, just trying to keep up. How did life go from so low, to so wonderful? This was a decision I should have made a long time ago. The place I left is not where I belong. I had a good day at work. I just kind-of flitted around to wherever I was needed, kicked ass and took names. I just hopped onto the grill, where I was never trained, and just started putting burgers together. It was awesome. I held down the front fort for about 30mins during the dinner rush, without having gone over some of the stuff again yet. It was interesting how quickly it all came back to me. I was really proud of myself. It sounds silly.Mom’s ECG was this morning. I dragged myself out of bed on barely any sleep to be there for her. We don’t have the results yet, but she seems positive and happy. I think everything will be alright. We went dancing at the Blues Club tonight, for Jazz Thursdays. There were a ton of people, and we shook some badass booty. We danced a lot– the entire time we were there (about 2 and a half hours).I’m learning. I don’t know how others see me, but lately it hasn’t been how I expected. I know how I see the world. I know how I see the people in it. I know how I see all of you. What is it you see when you’re looking back at me? Who is the person whose eyes you’re looking into? I’m simply curious to understand how I am perceived by others… so few understand me. (Who is it that you think I am?)I don’t really have much to say today… there wasn’t really a great opportunity for me to get my thinking cap on today. In the meantime, I’ve posted an album worth of songs I truly love and find profound, and have helped me get through some rough times. This will be a first in a series. They won’t all be substantial, but this one has a theme. Here you be! Happy listening!Gary Jules – Mad World
Switchfoot – I Dare You To Move
Lifehouse – Everything
Anna Nalick – Breathe (2AM)
Midnight Hour – Running Away
Muse – Supermassive Black Hole
Placebo – Running Up That Hill
Shiny Toy Guns – You Are The One
Tegan & Sarah – I Know, I Know, I Know
Vanilla Sky – UmbrellaI have closed my heart against covetousness and I am thus released from my debt both to those who are men, and those who deserve not that name, but since there existeth only one friend who will hold me by the hand, I am what I am; to him alone do I render account.♥Kassi