So I posted my song about 2 days ago and here’s my beef, not that everyone doesn’t have a life of their own to contend with, but it feels really convenient that every time I need someone to listen and it’s about my music, there isn’t an open ear for a thousand miles. The only person I know of who has taken the time to listen to my new song is Lauren. If nobody leaves me comments, I have no idea if anyone has downloaded it or listened to it or liked it or hated it.
It’s not even just posted on LiveJournal. I’ve posted it on FOUR websites. FOUR.
When people come up to me that I’ve known forever and tell me they never knew that I wanted to spend my life making music, that it’s what makes me truly happy, I just want to punch them in the face. I give people the opportunity to hear me, to get to know me that way, to in some way be a part of that, and nobody notices. And BECAUSE it’s my passion, when I get a completely blind, stupified wall of blank faces about it, it actually does hurt my feelings. Every single time I try to show someone something I’ve made I’ll be playing it and then whoever I’m showing it to starts talking and suddenly it’s like they don’t even know I’m there.
If you don’t like it, open your goddamn mouth and say so. That would be less offensive to me than being completely ignored. When I get ignored it implies that it’s not that you don’t like it, you don’t even care enough to take a few minutes of your time to decide if you do or don’t and say so.
My family does the same thing to me about my music. It’s incredibly discouraging.
I know that I’m not SO BAD that everyone hates my music because I’ve had complete strangers tell me that I have true talent, that I’m wasting my life at Chevron when I should be making my music professionally. I’ve had OTHER MUSICIANS tell me that.
So please speak up. If you’ve heard it take the few seconds to tell me what you think because being ignored is hurtful. It would be a shame if I made my music without sharing it with anyone and then had to ignore everyone if it ever got me anywhere.