Playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she’s not breathing?
Hello I’m your mind giving you
someone to talk to

If I smile and don’t believe
Soon I know I’ll wake from this dream
Don’t try to fix me I’m not broken
Hello I’m the lie living for you so you can hide
Don’t cry

Suddenly I know I’m not sleeping
Hello I’m still here
all that’s left of yesterday…



Hold on to me love
you know I can’t stay long
all I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight

I’ll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you can hear me
I can taste it in your tears

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight

Closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one’s there

Say goodnight
don’t be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

I am having a serious problem. I don’t want to hurt Melissa, but I don’t want to be her friend. She doesn’t know me at all, and its been proven beyond any shadow of a doubt. She had her time as my best friend, but its done. She and I are so different. We have nothing in common (nothing that matters). How can she want to be friends with someone she doesn’t like? I know she resents me, and that in some ways she wants to BE me (which isn’t an ego stroke, its scary).

She wants me to be her bestest friend and play dungeons and dragons with her dork brigade (no offence). I don’t have time for STUPID shit. I don’t have time. I have a boyfriend who I barely get to see, and a job that I have to work the worst hours in and a social life that wants to commit social suicide. I want the right people to care. I can’t keep moving back when I’ve fought so hard to move so far forward. I feel like I tripped on a big-ass rock on the road of life and I’m stuck in the mud.

I think I might have to make it perfectly clear about my wants and needs. I don’t WANT to be her friend, and I don’t NEED to yell at her to show it.

Also, Jessica, I’m a little worried about this co-habitation. For the first little while it will only be the three of us (Steve is having his doubts and I’d appreciate a little help convincing him). I cannot afford to pick up financial slack. I don’t want the bills in my name, but I will be able to pay what I’ve used. Phone bill payment will be determined by the call and who placed it and utilities and rent will be split even. Grocieries will be agreed on, and any extras we’ll pay for ourselves. Deal? Deal. I’m not financially stable enough to not be worrying about eviction of someone else fails to pay their share of the rent… etc.

Anyway, for now, farewell- ta… let’s see how much more I can fuck up my life before the end of the day.



~ by Kд§$ị (ИovΔ) on 04/11/2003.

One Response to “Hello”

  1. Hello

    is such a beautiful song, she has such a wonderful voice, it just adds to the power of the songs don’t you think?

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